Then What?

Below is a poem that I wrote a little while ago. It’s open, it doesn’t hold back and its vulnerable. Underneath the poem is a rebuttal of some sort – a reply – proof that there can be positive change that comes out of these types of situations if you’re willing to put in the thought and the work.

August 7th, 2019

There are times you can look at your life and see that all of the materialistic things are exactly how you pictured them, how you dreamed it would look like your entire life. The furniture, the shoes, the flowers, the posts on social media…

But inside its like you’re a stranger in your own home….in your own life. Hell, in your own body. 

They say you create your own reality, but what if reality wasn’t something you were ever taught to acknowledge? What if by some sad mistake you brought this all on yourself – what if you asked for it? 

And what if, just what if the damage can’t be undone? 

They say there’s no going back, only forward. But what if backing up and backing away is all you’ve ever known on the inside while pushing forward with a smile on the outside and now the cracks in the middle of the two are are beginning to show? 

What if what’s staring back at you in the mirror isn’t what you always pictured and not at all what you dreamed it would be?

Then what?

Then what? Then you reinvent the wheel, or at least try to.

There are times in everyone’s life, I can imagine, when we all feel hopeless, lost and confused. Life is full of ups and downs, choices, rewards and consequences. But if we try hard enough, most of the time we can pick ourselves up, work hard to wipe the slate as clean as it can get, make amends not only with others, but with ourselves as well. That last part is a very important step.

We have to learn to find the joy in life and live off of that – take that energy and put it towards everything you do as much as you can. Take time to take care of yourself, your life and your relationships (and weed out the toxic ones).

That step you’ve been afraid to take? That leap of faith to get the ball rolling towards the life you truly want inside and out? Take it. I did, and with a lot of work things are really turning around for me. I’m not at all saying that it’s an easy road, but if you put in the work it can be so worth it. I’m living, breathing proof. Though I’m still working on creating the life I want and manifesting my dreams, in just one month things have really changed for me and I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You have the power to turn things around and make your life exactly how you want it to be. Remember that, especially during the difficult times.


Love & Light,


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